Yes, I mean Anxiety Depression.
There shouldn't be a comma between the two words.
Anxiety Depression is a single animal and we're going to treat it as such.
Anxiety and Depression are both separate conditions, but there are occasions when both illnesses coalesce, producing one condition with its own symptoms.
If there is a good thing to be said for Anxiety Depression, it's self-induced, more often than not.
Taken separately, both diseases can attack a person out of thin air.
No rhyme nor reason can be found, apart from the imbalance of brain chemicals.
Depression causes you misery and unhappiness during the whole or part of the day, lessened to no interest in things you once enjoyed, serious fatigue and a complete lack of energy, feelings of worthlessness and persistent aches and pains, among other symptoms.
Anxiety, on the other hand, can cause you persistent severe worry, so that you pace around the place waiting for something terrible to happen.
This can lead to Panic Attacks, especially when you reach the stage that you're sure the sky's falling.
Anxiety Depression throws up different symptoms.
A more common one is that you feel you either can't or shouldn't express yourself, because if you do so, then people won't like you.
For instance, you shrink from entering into discussions with even one person.
Suppose they disagree with your opinion? Then the whole town's going to hear about it, and then--.
Totally irrational, but that's the way your brain works when you're in the grip of such an illness.
You're always nervous and if you don't have something to worry about, then you'll jolly soon find something.
Something out there needs worrying about, and you're just the person to find it! You're obsessive and always striving for perfection.
Someone with a controlled mind who's a perfectionist, isn't necessarily a bad thing.
It may be extremely annoying to co-workers, but provided there's no obsession behind it, you shouldn't suffer personally.
Unfortunately, when you're suffering from Anxiety Depression, you will.
Following on from your state of perfectionism, is that you set totally unrealistic goals for yourself.
Then comes the downward spiral.
You don't reach your goals; you can't.
You've set the bar way too high, so then you look upon yourself as a failure, that you're worthless.
You can never be satisfied with your efforts, because you try to be all things to all men, and of course this is quite impossible.
Yet another stressor to kick start your feelings of worthlessness.
Many years ago, I found myself caught in a man trap, a most unpleasant experience.
Why I was caught like that and how I escaped is another story, but, you know, your thoughts hold you in much the same way.
Find the key to spring the trap, the jaws of which are your thoughts, and set yourself free.
Sounds easy, doesn't it? It might sound easy, but it isn't.
You've lived with these thoughts probably for years and it'll take professional help to spring that darned trap.
However, there are three things you can do to help yourself.
Yes, it'll take self-discipline and application, but you deserve as much happiness as you can grab onto.
Firstly, everyone has one or more talents.
Take advantage of your's.
Secondly, set yourself reasonable goals, little ones to start with.
Reach them, and go a bit - I said a bit - higher.
Thirdly, don't keep criticizing yourself.
Believe it or not, you're human.
We all fail, sometimes monumentally.
What gives you the right to be any different!