I am seriously worried about my partner.
We have been living together for about six years happily but lately there has been a change in his moods and activities.
He seems irritated when he is around me and not his normal self.
It must be true what they say about women having intuition because I could feel that something was very wrong.
Even his look had changed.
He had a new haircut, new cologne and less time for me.
It is not rocket science to think he could be having an affair.
All the signs were there.
Against my better judgement I followed him one night to a so-called late meeting.
She was some meeting all right.
My partner was kissing a gorgeous blonde woman quite passionately I might add beside what must be her car.
The answer to that niggling voice in my head had been answered.
The guy I had trusted, given my heart too was a rotten cheater.
I hardly remember driving home but when I got there I poured myself a glass of wine and proceeded to wait for him.
He walked through the door looking quite flushed and for that I could not imagine why.
When he saw me sitting there and by now it was my second or third wine I am not quite sure he asked my very casually what was wrong.
I told him that I had caught him red handed with his blonde bombshell and that I wanted a divorce.
He then started to cry.
This really threw me, as I had not expected this reaction at all.
Yes he had been having an affair but he did not love this girl from the playboy centrefold.
I am not meaning to sound facetious but she looked that good.
He told me it had made him feel alive again as I had not been that interested in sex for some time.
There was some truth in that as after our second child I had lost the desire to make love.
I wanted to know why he did not talk to me about it and instead jumped into the sack with the blonde of the century.
His answer like many men was I found it hard to resist her.
To be honest I think anyone would have found it hard to say no to this woman.
So with my self-esteem on the floor and my relationship in tatters I went to bed alone.
The next day my partner said he had finished it with this woman.
It did not do much to make me feel any better as my head was splitting from too much wine the night before.
I guess though it was a start.
For our relationship to get back on track we were going to need time and a lot of talking.
Part of me was so angry I wanted to pack his bag and throw him out the door.
But I also knew he was a good man who may have made a mistake so the only problem was could I eventually forgive him and move on.
If you want the truth right now I could not tell you if that is possible.
I am really hurt.
I gave this guy two gorgeous children that I know he loves with all his heart and myself and all that goes with it.
So for now he is sleeping in the spare room because I did not want my kids upset.
My partner and I are talking but every time he leaves the house I still wonder if he is with her again.
When does that time come that you stop wondering? I know couples go through this every day but when it happens to you it really shakes your world.
I am not sure where we go from here but I hope it is back together and stronger than ever.
But if not life has a way of going on.