For so many years you had me fooled I never thought that you would put me in a position to choose between the daughter I gave birth to who most certainly will be around long after you the man to whom I sincerely trusted my heart trusted in my home- trusted to make a new life start I am so angry inside it 's tearing me apart fighting myself trying to figure out why what would cause a man to violate a child I taught her to tell if anyone touched her wrong never thinking the man I trusted would cause her harm and for her to keep this secret from her own mom You must have made my baby terribly scared for so long Where is your love? What sick twisted man can prepare to make someone go through such a nightmare that I ever loved you- I must have been out of my mind I beat myself up that I didn't pick up on the signs I can't stop myself from asking myself "was love that blind" Not in a million years could I guess I had a pedophile in my own home abusing my own child! I just want to ask you how and why? I am a woman am I not enough for you? This is a innocent child I don't understand how I couldn't see or recognize that you were a monster that we have watched on Court TV and Forensic Files Tell me how I got fooled in my own home by a pedophile.